Bad Guys

1 "So, what are you asking me?" Harley said. "Are you asking me for drugs? If you want drugs, there are drugs. There's alprazolamthat's your Xanax genericor lorazepam; you've got your diazepam and" "Diaza-what?" "Diazepam. It's not a cooking spray. It's Valium. There's a huge list of antianxiety prescriptions out there, some better than others, some downright dangerous. We don't use phenobarbitals anymore, too addictive, sometimes fatal. There's various herbal remedies, if you're into that sort of thing. Or, I don't know whether you've considered something like this before, but you could just lighten the fuck up." Harley's not your average doctor. He's more of a friend, with a medical degree, and a successful practice, and an examining room, which I happened to be sitting in at this moment, somewhat under duress. Harley and I were buddies back in high school, then lost touch a bit while I went to college for an English degree and he went off to medical school. "Hey," I would say to him when we occasionally ran into one another, "just what kind of job do you expect to get with a medical degree?" Years later, he became my doctor. This appointment hadn't been my idea. It had been my wife Sarah's. And "idea" is probably the wrong word. "Ultimatum" would probably be a better one. "Go see Harley," she said, "or I'm going to call a divorce lawyer. Or smother you in your sleep." The threat about the divorce lawyer didn't worry me that much. Sarah has a low opinion of the legal profession, and would probably choose sticking with me over engaging the services of one of its members. But the smothering-me-in-my-sleep thing, that seemed within her range of capabilities. "The thing is," Harley continued, leaning up against the paper-covered examining bed, "there's a lot of shit to deal with in life, and sometimes that's just what you have to do. Deal with it. You're not the only one with a teenage daughter, you know. Mine's twenty-two now, seems to finally have her head on straight, but two years ago she was too busy boffing some out-there art student to study for her midterms. The guy did a show of sculptures made from raw meat. You had to go early." "I can't seem to help it," I said. "I worry. I worry all the time. It's the way I'm hardwired. Sometimes I've let it get the better of me." "I know," Harley said. "I watch the news." "And I've been trying to do better, honest to God, but this thing with Angie . . ." "How old is she now?" "Eighteen." Harley's eyes rolled, remembering. "And what did you do, exactly?" "She'd promised to be home by one in the morning. She was going out with some guy from where she worked for the summer, at the pool store. She sold chlorine and algaecide and tested water samples, and there was this guy who worked there, young kid, who went around the neighborhood maintaining people's pools for them." "Yeah." "So she started going out with Pool Boy." "This is what you called him. Pool Boy." "Not to his face, or to Angie. It was just a name I had for him, is all. Anyway, she was out with him onBarclay, Linwood is the author of 'Bad Guys ', published 2005 under ISBN 9780553803860 and ISBN 0553803867.